20 years

and in 20 years

i hope to see you in a home

that isn't mine

a home of parents 

that isn't their children's

in 20 years

i will carry no regret

i will carry no guilt

i will only carry the relief of not having you anymore

in 20 years

my arms won't bleed

and i won't disappoint anyone

and i won't sit alone

in 20 years

i will build a better life

without you

i will learn how to love again

in 20 years

you will have nothing left to say

you will have nothing left to know

you will have nothing left to be upset with

nothing left to be happy with

nothing left to be okay with

you will only have yourself to be with

you will sit with yourself

you will look out windows

you will wonder how i am

you will regret what you did

and you will never forgive yourself

 

and in 20 years

i will be better

 

shame on you