I can only wish.

I wish that I could remove the memories of you,

I wish that I could remove your hand prints,

I wish that I could stop crying over you,

I wish that I could be free from you,

I wish that I could be okay again,

I wish that I could of never met you,

I wish that I could of never trusted you,

I wish that I could of never even loved you.

 

Yet here I am, replaying events in my mind,

Yet here I am, trying to wash away your hands,

Yet here I am, crying all because of you,

Yet here I am, stuck like your little puppet,

Yet here I am, destined to never be okay,

Yet here I am, knowing I can't go back in time, 

Yet here I am, my trust shattered from your doing,

Yet here I am, loving you despite everything.

 

The memories you've engraved in my mind, 

The hands I'll never remove from my body,

The emotions you've made my spirit feel, 

The feeling I'll always have in my heart,

The lasting impacts you've left on my soul.

 

I hate you, I wish I'd never met you.

I love you, I wish I'd never met you.