A Harsh Hit Of Reality

I am knocking on heaven’s door 
My heart aches for my phenomenal angel 
My core is yearning for some more 
of your love and happiness. Can’t you hear my cries through the holy bell?

I am struggling with my heartbreaking pain 
I feel breathless from my own heart 
In this world there is nothing more to gain 
How do could we go back to our perfect start 

It was me and you against the world and we had conquered it 
I thought our spellbinding love would be enough 
But you had to go to the above, leaving me with a reality hit 
I fell down on the ground that was hard and rough 

I automatically reached out for you but you weren’t there 
Kneeling, sobbing my broken heart out 
I couldn’t care less about my makeup and my straggly hair
In this moment all I can is scream and shout 

I suspect, I am looking like an imbecile on this pavement 
Still reaching out in front for anyone 
Wrapped up and scrambled up in my own bereavement
Looking like a mess, to be witnessed by everyone 

To see and talk, some people are just laugh about me 
I love you so much, my hands are shaking 
This pain I can’t take anymore, I want to be happy 
While stupid people are pointing fingers at me, whilst my heart is breaking