feeling like disappering

Sometimes I feel like disappearing 

this is how I know the demons are here

they want me 2 fade, cut, and starve

I can feel them around me 

24/7

they make me thing life would be better in heaven 

sleeping all day and crying all night 

the demons in my head make me feel like I'm always right 

the cutting, the starving, the crying 

sometimes I wish I could stop thinking, stop feeling, 

stop wanting to be more like u more like anyone but just not me

if only u could understand me 

but u cant 

no one does

becuz how could they see?

this smile I'm faking is too deep

were  all a little crazy.

were all a little sad

but the voices in my head keep telling me I'm very bad 

and I know it's true

or maybe its not the voice 

to want to stop breathing 

to think thats a choose.