I dont care if you hate me now I just hope it changes

Lost in your head, you quit.

All promises for you were a desire.

For me it was always a state of faith.

I don’t blame you if you hate me.

I hope I don’t lose you.

I only wish you well.

Be safe, be sound, be real.

Be strong.

You always thought we were alike.

And I won’t deny that’s, too, what I saw.

But what we think is not true.

Even if it’s not most of the time.

I always felt like a sailor.

Guiding your ship to a crash.

Guiding you to a land.

Of forsaken your own knowledge.

I was neither bad nor evil.

It’s just the way that I live.

And you said you joined my ship long ago.

And I welcomed you dearly.

Just to find out you weren’t fit.

You are only lost in your thoughts.

You didn’t know where I was.

You couldn’t know the right from wrong.

And again, I don’t held you accountable.

I mean to be no prosecution.

I only try to think.

And find a general solution.

And even if it means we lose paths.

Or cut ties with each other.

It wouldn’t matter as long as it’s right.

It won’t matter in the future.

Only when I see so much ahead of you.

In love and light, we trust.

In God we pray and hope.

And you have so much in you.

Despite what you truly think or say.

I only wish you well.

A home will only be a premises if you are lost in your head.

And you got so much to bear.

I didn’t want to be an addition.

I stopped the ship for sailing.

I put an end to all of this.

And you will get back on track.

You will rise stronger than ever.

And even if you don’t see me.

I will be cheering my heart out.

For you I was a dream.

For me you’re always there a reality.

For me everything is the same.

And I wanted the most special thing for you.

I am sorry if you see me as a traitor.

I just want what is best for you.

And I know what is best for you.

And it’s absolutely not in my agenda.

Sometimes I feel so cruel.

But it won’t hurt like dishonesty.

Sometimes I think about dying alone.

It’s far better than living awry.

Into the fall we trust.

In the hope of life, we stand.

I got your back I am just here.

For you to call, trace and talk.

If you need me, you will find me.

As your beautiful companion.

I am sorry I couldn’t be more.

I am sorry if I failed you.

I just love you dearly I can’t see you rotting.

And if the time passes and you change your mind.

I will forever be here waiting.

For a call or a text.

Cause I will forever ride for you, my beloved.