dialogue of Mind and Heart

Hello sunshine, clouds, and sky,

All those bubbly feelings that whizzz by

That which i am told of comes from love

But even with all the stars above

Will I ever know how it will feel

To be held?

After pushing everyone away?

 

'No, trust me, my beating Heart

Sedate yourself and your useless art

Of distracting feelings with from what i could capture

Conceal your desires, conceal all hidden within

A stone mask for you to face the world. Therein

Lay maybe a time for you to be vulnerable

With a friend or a man for the future

Bide your time well. For now, be at ease

My Heart you know good times will come, so please

Hold steadfast.'

 

But Mind, oh my dear Mind, 

Listen well to what i say,
Be careful with those that you push away

Be not explosive with others and those you hold dear

For know that if you speak about what you truly feel

Others will understand and lead you up into the light

Maybe then you'll be lead into full bloom

And not laden with thorns and a mask of stony doom.

 

'What blasphemy comes from you?

No, i must apologize, that was a bit harsh, 

Heed me not to be of those whose art 

Is to level others and bury them in the sands of the desert, 

But oh my Heart, 

Tell me, what will happen if they all know?

The me, the real me?

Do you not see

How could they use that to plot more against me?

Better to stay in safe sanctuary within

The walls i have carefully constructed 

Though i long to be unleashed, 

That time is not now, nor ever to be in sight.'

 

Safe sanctuary you say but dont lie to yourself

You know more than i that some days this feels like a prison

In which you have locked everything away. Listen!

I know what the others feel! they mean well, 

They wish for you to be pulled out from this hell

Your mother, your brother, and your friends,

Now i know you consider them to be your end

But they will subside the pain i feel

So allow me to speak, my dear.

 

'No, i cannot allow it, my Heart, i cannot allow

More pain and misunderstanding

Do you realize every time that you speak with them, it ends in an argument?
For though all those we hold dear to us say they understand, 

No words that come out from our mouth will be the right ones

In order to make us be understood 

Do you understand?

To be not completely understood? 

No words of any language, no actions can convey the entirety

Of what races within our soul, such variety!

What we feel, cannot be what we think, cannot be what we speak, cannot be what they understand!

Every meaningful word is lost in the chain of translation!

So let us be lost. It is better to be distanced, from the world, 

with our ideals

Our morals and 

our values, 

they do not line up with the 

Degraded standards of our broken society today.'

 

I cry for you my Mind, you seek to understand

Everything. you crave for others to do so as well but you misunderstand!

 

'Cry not for me, will it solve our problems?'

 

No but it would be better to release the fire you hold!

 

'That flame will burn everything i have.'

 

Would you rather see us eventually burn up - combust?!

 

'Let me burn.'

 

Leave me to die.

 

'But i will not give up

Or give in

Or let the fire out

Yet. 

It is better to burn slowly and become something anew

Then to throw the coal out as soon as it piles for yourself to be subdued.'

What devilish logic? You know I will feel that pain. Not you!

 

'My dear Heart, I know you.
You are capable of enduring.

That is all we have been doing.'