DREAM

Did I ever tell you I always had nightmares?
Every night I try to sleep,
I see water everywhere.
It keeps rising, engulfing me.
I try to scream.
But there will be no words, just bubbles coming out..
I try to swim, but the water rises too high.
I drown, constantly trying to flee.

Did I ever tell you I open my eyes with struggle then?
I knew it's a dream,
I knew it's all in my head,
But I struggled to open my eyes and not drown.
Did I ever told you it almost felt like death?
That I was scared every time I wake up.

Did I ever tell you that's why
I cuddled close to you every morning?
Your embrace was cold and wet,
I would shiver every now and then,
But it was there.
& Somehow, I found peace.

Did I ever tell you I'm lost now?
that every night I'm killed by this dream,
that I don't even dare to open my eyes in struggle.
I lie there, watching the water engulf me.
I live a life of a thousand deaths.

You were my home.
Cold and wet, 
But home nonetheless.