Why?

Demari Powell 

Why..?

Why do i love so much? Why do i always get hurt why do i always cry please tell me why. I never do anything wrong yes i cry over little things yes im mentally ill but why do i always cry i don't get it. Why am I always sad over someone I'm always hurt by love but why? Have I not seen true love or am I just not good enough why am I always not good enough why? I'll kill for someone, I'll stop stuff for someone but they'll never do the same but why? I'm always hurt. It's not fair is…? I'm always insincere about myself but why? Is it because I'm always listening to what people say or is it the way I get treated but why? Guys love my body but not me but why? Is it my curves and my butt or is it my eyes and my soul but why? I'm pretty or am I just an object but why? Is it the way I pose? I walk, talk, act, things i say but why choose huh? I love and get attached but why? Is it because my dad  left me and I need male attention or is it because I was groomed and think it's ok to be used but why I don't like it. I'm not happy. I'm not even comfortable. I don't feel pretty, I don't feel anything, I feel used but why? Was it bc i was raped or was because my ex loved bombed me but why? Did he know that I had attachment issues but why me? Is it hard for me to love and hard for me to be pretty? I have to act rude but why? I don't know why? Was I chosen for this pain? why was i raped why was i groomed why was i harresd why was i abused why was i attached to danger? Why am I scared to leave or should I just leave, leave everything, leave life..