Un-certainty

rust

What are you trying to say?

What do you mean?

You say that, 

And I am convinced

That you want to see me falter. 

I catch the vile glint in your eyes.

Is it genuine confusion, or is it

Genuine jealousy?

And here, now, the doubt trickles in,

Past the limp hairs on my skin

An intoxicating fume that filters up, up, up

All the way to my brain.

My golden brain!

Which until now thumped with life

The thoughts which had clung to its bloody walls like vines

Now yellow, the colour of intuition offuscated. 

It wilts, and shrivels,

intelligible even to its owner. 

And in my throat, something juts out. 

I want to vomit but choke instead. 

I want to roll on the floor and gag until this acid thing frees itself.

I am in pain, lashed by shame. 

But you are waiting. 

I need to make sense!

Sense, sense, quickly!

The look in your eyes is unmoving. There is certainty in your muteness. 

A certainty that I was born deprived of. 

In your angry silence, I am lost. 

  • Author: rust (Offline Offline)
  • Published: August 15th, 2024 23:09
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  • sorenbarrett

    Uncertainty breeds fear and certainty breeds courage. Unfortunately certainty and courage do not always breed compassion. Nicely written



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