Have You?

Have you ever wanted to die?
No longer want to live this life?
Can’t escape the pain
No matter how hard you seem to try
All you ever want to do is cry
Can never figure out why

Always laying in bed
Contemplating life
Like what the hell is this
Like I wasn’t put onto this earth to deal with this
Like why was I put on this earth with these thoughts so dangerous?
Have you ever felt this way?
Where every single day
Is a struggle to stay motivated
A struggle to get out of bed
To get shit done
Have you ever felt like life’s not worth living?
Can’t seem to picture your future
No matter how hard you try
But the funny thing is
When you were a child
You had all these big ideas
These big ass dreams
The future was all you could think about
Excited for the next chapter in your life
But now
Now you can’t seem to have dreams
Have goals
Have big ideas
Don’t know where your life is heading
But you don’t really want to live it
That’s as much as you know
Know about yourself
That’s as much as I know
Know about myself
Or maybe that’s just me
So I’ve got to ask

Have you ever wanted to die?
No longer want to live this life?
Can’t escape the pain
No matter how hard you seem to try
All you ever want to do is cry
Can never figure out why

Have you ever thought about dying?
Pictured every last detail
Every which way you could go
Pictured it in so much depth, time so slow
Have you?
Cause I have
More times than you could ever imagine
Have you ever felt like your life is a burden?
On every one else’s
Like they’d be better off without you
Would they even remember you?
Or notice you if you were gone?
Have you ever thought these thoughts?
Wondering why you’re the only one
Everyone else seems so happy
Get along with everyone
While you’re just all alone
Don’t have anybody to call home
Thoughts in your head so loud
Always around
Blast music in your ears to cancel them out
Music is silence to you
Nothing else going on
No more voices ranting on
Or maybe that’s just me
So I’ve got to ask

Have you ever wanted to die?
No longer want to live this life?
Can’t escape the pain
No matter how hard you seem to try
All you ever want to do is cry
Can never figure out why