Time was when the gnarled
canker of the poplar tree,
the grotesque blemish
of lips on a fish,
the warm red stain
on a tiger’s tooth,
and the savage rite of thunder
brought revulsion to her soul.
Like the schoolmen, speaking
from the sacerdotal dust
with dead dry lips,
her conclusion was always clear:
grace perfects nature, and nature
signifies the righteous and the good.
But a dark turn of thought
came like a thief;
a dark dynamic perceived
in the workings of nature:
natura naturans—
nature doing what it will;
artless, murderous, free,
free from an order of Being
crowned by an absent apex.
'What is the purpose of Being', she mused,
'if Being is nothing more than becoming?
Can I ever step into the same river twice?'
Winter’s mind revealed the answer.
Ever since the turn,
and ever since the breath
of that white winter
spoke to soul,
the prodigies of nature
and the entrails of their truth
shape a close connection
to her depths, bringing
freakish calm and consolation.
The blinking advent from a cave,
an all too human
hibernation, breathes in its wake
the frosted air of fact.
And to the brazen hoof
the frost inspires a deviation
from perpendicular paths,
strewn with sentimental buds
coloured kitsch by the words—
at once sublime and trite—
of romantic preconceptions.
Far from reckless musings
of a poetaster’s fancy, the crooked way
invites the flesh-destroying claw.
No solidarity with the sun
can be established; it burns
her back and shines outside
the confines of her creature world;
and with the stars and moon
becomes irrelevant to the quest.
For what she seeks, and what
she needs to feel, is the hot red rush
of primal blood; the bequest
of the beast at the cusp of dawn,
descending through the veins of earth
to the core of its becoming.
A congress of soul and earth. Her veins
sink ruptured, deep in reddened soil
infested with sarcophagi
of unmourned mundane bones.
Freedom of the fierce—
or rather, licence of the brute—
gives her the grace, an earthly grace,
to slough off ancient skin
and stand apart from human herds
and sundry other mobs deemed
consequential to the race.
‘To walk in integrity, I crouch like a beast,
but a beast alone, away from the herd.
Bad company ruined me
and also ruined the race.
But the race must hang in any case,
and the race that hangs is forever cursed’.
The shadow rises
with the falling of the sun.
There is music in the beating
of the blood. An encounter with this shadow
in the morning of the beast:
blessed, so blessed
by the Edenic richness
of blood and sacrifice.
For all the blood,
a portrait of the paradise
presents a masterpiece of soothing;
an analgesic for the penitent sting
of manufactured values.
‘What are mores but a mask for vice?
And isn’t virtue a mask for the same?
As the fierce fighter said,
justice is the preserve of the strong,
and is preserved by the sinews
of animal strength’.
There is a rising in her mind.
‘To forsake the human
is not inhuman; not when
the masculine wear a beast’s face
beneath a clown mask.
The clown is always a malevolence;
He paints his lips with children’s blood.
I am a forest, and a night of dark trees,
but I am not afraid; I embrace the darkness
of the self and soul.
But I am more, and with the last
scrawl of the claw,
on the last tree in the dark,
I will scratch an epigraph
to breach the next beginning,
a trinity of words, unholy:
I am animal’.
- Author: davmor73 ( Offline)
- Published: September 5th, 2024 15:21
- Category: Unclassified
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