What If

What if im still unsteady, whatif i told the secrets that are hidden within. Maybe i wasnt ready to leave. What if i need more then what was provided. I cant just stay away tho i have to learn how to cope, even tho im at then end of my rope. I have high hopes but they seem to fail when i need them the most. What if i need to go back just to get on track. Maybe this life is to stressful i can keep running away from the problems. I feel so unsteady. Anxious, antsy, like im always pacing, my minds racing, i dont even know what im chasing. Im shaking but im not cold, im not in fear. So why the shakiness why all this pacing. Just what if.....