tHE DEATH OF sAYA

iam useless 
iam worthless,
Nobody needs
Nobody wants me,
iam a maggot
In the coffin,
iam nobody
iam noxious…
i can't just tear -
iam so hopeless,
One part is dead,
The right is scorching.

i thought iam good -
So cruel option,
i thought iam loved -
The knife just object,
i thought, i thought, i thought…
Admit it?
To change blood flowing, 
For who i needed?

iam the star for people near me,
i hate them all, somebody kill me,
Bloodline should stop in my blood last,
How endured i,
How works disgust?

The broken promise,
i received it,
i tried, i tried, i tried ,
You see it,
iam disturbing,
iam realme
A plee for understanding, hear me,
my voice is weak,
But i must say,
Soft spoken thrown -
i should scream it ,
However i decayed,
Forgive me…
Don't care, forget my deep despair,
The message will be sent,
You'll see it,
And i don't need compassion yet…

i could so much...
In dreams i think...
i only dream and dream and dream...
Forbidden saying the true feeling -
Green heart in spikes,
Blood pressure downs,
The right side died,
The tears don't bringing,
Incision made -
Am i forgiven?