It's All Fake

I never wanted to admit this before, but I am starting to realize that maybe love isn't real,

Because no matter how hard I try, it seems like no one else feels the way that I feel.

There is nothing worse than love only coming from one side,

And then you are left with all of those feelings that you are trying to hide.

Because just like every other time, thinking you felt the same was all in my head,

And I am left here trying to figure out how I misinterpreted every word that you said.

I thought you were starting to fall for me, the way that I fell for you,

But once again, I am left here trying to figure out what to do.

Every time I want to give up, I here your name again,

And it's like the universe is telling me not to give up, and that it was meant to be me and you in the end.

I am not going to waste another five years of my life like I have down before,

Because that ruined my head, and I can't do that anymore.

This back and fourth, trying to figure out if I should stay or if I should go,

But there is a piece of me that needs to accept the fate of what I already know.

That if you wanted to you would, and I wouldn't be left questioning why,

And skating by everyday, not letting anyone know about all of the tears that I cry.

Because at the end of the day, I know you don't care,

But I am also not going to pretend and sit here and act like it's fair.

That everyone else always seems to get everything I desire,

And realizing that everything you told me is just making me realize that you are a liar.

I am left to pick up the pieces every time I hear your name,

And understanding how stupid I am for believing that you felt the same.

Here I am, questioning everything you because you ended up being like every other jerk,

And deep down, I knew it was never actually going to work.

Thanks for being another lesson,

And I am just going to focus on my work until I finally find my blessing.