a poem in sentences

A poem in sentences 

We all have secrets mysteries hidden in our hearts and now my time has come to tell someone before I leave what I have kept to myself too long. I choose Laura because after I am gone, she can tell Edward help him understand what I could never tell him while we were together. I hear Mamma singing and I ask her forgiveness for being here without her. As I fall asleep, I feel her hand caressing my face and I am safe. Dare I tell Laura about David, my deepest secret? I never told Edward about him because I could never find the right words. I was afraid he would be jealous. David’s music could make the angels weep. If I could sweep the past away and have Laura hear him, she would know why I loved him with my soul. We came to the camp together. I stood outside the gate to the men’s area and listened to his cries as the guards whipped him to death for stealing a piece of bread. I sent him my love in whispers filled with tears. Edward thought he had taken me to safety, but I carried the sounds and smells of the camp with me every day and every day I missed David. Edward’s love never healed the pain left in my heart when David died, and I could not go with him. I wanted to love my husband there were days when he came close to replacing David in my heart. Then, when I fell asleep, dreams would bring the sound of the whip and his cries to me, and I turned away from Edward. What is left to say? The words are gone. Can they talk about my father who held a small child’s hand, singing softly so she wouldn’t be afraid, as they walked to the gas chamber? Does anyone still care about us? Sometimes I hate Edward because he gave me life without those I loved by my side. David is playing his special music, the one I remember from our last night together. The angels are dancing in the moonlight. It is time to go. I do not want Edward to grieve my departure. There was simply not enough light left in me to fight the memories any longer.