a message to my teacher

i don't think you get it, feeling

nothing and everything at once

sitting and staring at the wall

not enough energy to move

not even picking up my phone

teach it all you want but it slips

nothing you're saying is sticking

im in the room but I'm not there

you ask me if it makes sense

but nothing is getting to my head

it's a wall full of sand

everything that's happened

you wont get it Mrs. you won't

you'll think i'm crazy

just like they all do

ask me how I feel I don't know

I feel like nothing matters

I feel like I'll lose my mind

I feel hurt and angry

I feel too much

I feel too much it's nothing

This silence is so loud

I feel my eyes glaze over

And I watch myself again

I can't think

Isn't it frustrating?

I want to learn but can't

And they only think I'm dumb

That I'll never get it

And so I think that too

Until I give up

Because I can't think

There's no room left.