burning skin

burn

the thought flicks in my head

so does the lighter in my hand

burn

i heat up the metal

i’ve done this a million times

burn 

it’s the only way to stop the pain

i can’t think about anything except for the flame infront of me

burn

i smell my own flesh searing

it’s not a good smell

burn

my head starts to clear

my eyes start to water

burn

my skin still heated

the pain ever lingering

burn

again? 

why again?

burn

i repeat till i can’t feel

i stop when the smell gets too overbearing

burnt

skin left in shambles

my tears clouding my vision

done

this ritual is over

i’m left alone to recover

help

a silent cry in the night

burning to keep myself from losing this invisible fight