I remember now

…..When entering the body I developed the wrong self esteem, no longer identifying with the light, when I look down, now I’m afraid of heights; confused by the night, fleeting memories of a bodiless entity hovering like a kite; every now and then, I get freed in the night, then forced back into this restrictive body and it’s reduced light, feels like suffocation but I fight through by breathing with all my might, I come through like I’m floating to the surface, trying to maintain my true identity and purpose, before the nurses the and curses; and the confusion of the churches.