I’m a real tough kid?

You never really noticed, you really don’t get it…

This overwhelming feeling of distraught always destroying me,

I’m drowning in these thoughts and lies that I just want to let free,

Always working towards what I’ll never actually achieve,

Running and hiding from all the good things I could never receive,

Don’t know why I’m always trying to search for a good reason to stay,

As much as it hurts I can never stop wishing all the perfect days away,

I had this deep feeling as if everything in the world was turning gray,

Putting on this fake smile, trying to believe that everything is going to be okay,

I feel this suffocating feeling that I can’t ever escape making it harder to breathe,

Missing the times when we were happy those moments are memories we can never retrieve,

Writing down all my feelings because no one understands, the words spill over the page,

Each tear that rolls down my cheek reminds me of the time that we lost at such a young age,

Everyday feels like a battle reminding me about the times I haven’t felt tough,

It didn’t matter how hard I tried I never really ever felt like enough,

In a room full of laughter and love I stand alone feeling like an open wound,

“They said babe you gotta fake it till you make it and I did!”