Hero

So I want to be your hero

I know I’ve dropped the ball

Promised you a lot as if you could have it all

That why I could come save you

If you would answer me

Look me in the eye

Don’t turn your back on me

I will make you see the better side of me

If I have to destroy you to prove it

Then I’ll fix you

Show you some compassion

Listen with passion

Be so kind and gentle

Like I am for everyone else

But if you tell them what I’ve done to you

Beware I’ll be ashamed

And then you’ll need to comfort me

Which would be nice

I know I don’t deserve it

Know you’ve wished a thousand times

That you could see me six feet under

Still I wonder

Could you please forgive me

Like no other

No one elses’ heart means as much as thine

Your hand in mine

Oh screw this bitter gagging reflex if I could be sincere

I sincerely mean it

This time

Sorry for all that I’ve done

Said

Hurt you

All the time I hurt myself

Punishment could never be enough

As long as you were hurt by me

Could you let it go?

At last for long I’ve wished it

Unbeknownst to everyone else who saw us bickering

Heard our fists fly into drywall

Snapped the cords our necks were tied with

Swallowed all the pills that let the demons take our body

No calamity

Warranted the time you still have left imprisoned on the earth

Trapped in this mortality

With me

And wishing it was better so you wouldn’t have to leave

Wishing you could tolerate my presence better

Wait through all this weather

Realize that I’m not the storm that binds you

I am trying to remind you

Still am learning how to be your friend

Until the end

I hope someday to be

Myself