Bleed Out

Yesterday,

You kissed me as if we still love each other.

Today,

The conversation went away as if we never knew one another.

48 hrs ago We drank, we laughed, we stopped just short of crying.

Today,

radio silence

And

Truthfully speaking this separation seems worse than dying.

Definitely Easier said than done.

You were supposed to be my one…..

And only.

Lonely

Was never supposed to be part of this plan.

Yet here we are….

I begged God for motivation to write again,

Had I known it’d cost me you I would’ve rather never touched a pen again.

Never buy another journal or notebook,

Never rhyme again and have a graphophobic outlook

I’m so shook.

My hands tremble as my heart bleeds onto this tear stained paper.

Wishing I could rewrite the ending from bye to I’ll see you later.

Because seeing you later would be the only way to end this nightmare.

Staring at this bottle beside me wishing it was you right there.

But,

I have to settle for another shot….

Tequila embracing me knowing that she’s all I’ve got.

While also making her best case for being all that I need

To Guide me through this unwelcomed welcome back to the place where broken souls bleed.