I was never innocent.
I’ve walked away too many times,
leaving love to bleed out behind me.
I’ve been the reason someone questioned their worth,
the reason they whispered to the walls,
"Why wasn’t I enough?"
I let them cling to a dream I never intended to share,
built a fragile, glittering illusion of us,
only to watch it shatter in their hands.
I stayed just long enough to feel their warmth,
to fill the aching hollowness inside me
then I slipped away,
like a ghost they couldn’t hold onto,
leaving them to choke on the emptiness I left behind.
But before I disappeared,
I let my selfishness dig its claws deep.
I took more than I gave,
drawing out their kindness until they were empty.
I leaned on their love like a crutch,
knowing full well I’d abandon them when I could walk again.
I made promises I knew I wouldn’t keep,
spoke words I didn’t mean,
just to hear them say, “I believe you.”
I watched their joy dissolve under my carelessness,
let their laughter fade into quiet apologies for things
they shouldn’t have been sorry for.
And when they tried to save us,
when they begged me to stay,
I let them carry the weight of the blame,
their desperate “What did I do wrong?”
met with my silence.
I let their tears fall, unmoved,
because it was easier than facing my own shame.
Now, I carry the weight of it all
the heartbreak I became,
their questions,
their sleepless nights,
their tears that fall in shadows.
I see it still
the look in their eyes,
when they realized I wouldn’t stay.
How they searched for answers
in a goodbye I never explained.
And in my cowardice,
I made them feel
what I’ve always feared the most:
what it’s like to love someone
who was never going to stay
Comments3
A heartfelt and touching account of some one with real remorse of how they have treated some one, written with honesty and with sincerity.
Tough burden to carry but great write.
Now a poem written out and shared that is close to the path I’ve trod. Much liked 👍🏻
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