Silence of The Night

I dread the silence of the night

Silence is all I hear
Silence is screaming in my ears
Silence once again has brought me to tears

Night is the darkest time of day
Not because the sun has set, the lights have dimmed
But because I'm alone once the night begins
Alone in my room
The silence of the night comes creeping in

I hate the night,
I lose to its fight
I try and try to close my eyes
I lock them shut praying for the night's demise
But the silence unlocks them leaving me to cry

The struggle to sleep leaves me to weep
I try to make a routine to help me find sleep
Schedules are too much upkeep
I am never motivated, I don't even brush my teeth

Sleep through the day and struggle through the night
No wonder why it's so hard to keep my life
The silence leaves me only to think
1000 thoughts all in a blink

I dread the sound of hearing “goodnight”
Because the next thing I know I'm on the nighttime flight
The flight to my brain that keeps me awake

No one to talk to, alone in my thoughts
Drowning in silence
Waiting for sound, waiting for someone, something to come abound
Wide awake until the early bird's crow
Once the silence is gone I can finally sleep
No more silence, no more weeps
Just sounds of birds awaking with peeps

When night comes creeping around the corner
My thoughts come too
As I sit in horror
Thoughts come spinning around my head
Too many to count, no use trying to go to bed

Thoughts laugh and mock
They degrade my soul
They scream and yell into my ears
My eyes start to fill with heavy tears
I prepare my soul as the sun disappears
But nothing compares to the thoughts that fill my ears

I blare music over the thoughts
It doesn't help
I feel distraught
There's nothing that beats the reoccurring thoughts

I feel hopeless
I may not be able to silence the thoughts
But I can turn off my brain with a simple bullet
No that's too harsh
I shall rip off my ears
The thoughts will not disappear
But they won't be screaming in my ears

My eyes fill with tears as I grip my ears
I hear the tearing of my skin as I cringe
I rip and pull until there gone
But the thoughts are louder
What have I done

Silence has won
I will never hear the sound of the early bird's crow
I only hear my thoughts as they grow
Thousands now millions
I start to suffocate
I try to breathe as my thoughts squeeze around my neck
They cut off my hands so I can't fight back
I sit there and suffer as I drown in my thoughts
My body is found laying in bed
They said it was suicide
But I was murdered by the thoughts in my head