STUCK IN MY HEAD!!

Lost in my head ,deep and far away..to a place that scares me ,and keeps me astray!......

There's no doubt keeping in mind, once I've lost me,..I become very hard to find!!

...going in at first seems so shut down...all at once pictures are blank ,and having no sound!!

Then there's the point ..there's no turning back..

Unable to see clear..,unable to keep track!!

Seems so crowded ..,in all the rong ways..I'm pretty sure it's from being in a daze..

Being in my head I can see ..all the parts of me that don't belong,..

It's like listening again and again to a hated song!!

Are my thoughts so untouched..,and left in despair?

That they are just a thought away from becomeong a night mare?..being along in my head seems so far away and abused,...

AND LETS NOT FORGET THE GREYMATTER THATS NOT BEING USED!!

I see in the distance the far part of my brain.,,,and all the moments I've tried but could not sustain ..

As I walk further to the back of my skull..

I see it's close to empty ...

I guess it wasn't really that full.

I'm stuck in my head ..

Locked in some how..

If this shit keeps up ..I've gotta get OUT NOW!..

STANDING UP ..I step over my voice of reason,and trip over regret as well,then I fall over on some concern OR was it contempt ...I couldn't tell! Bumped up against SINFULL NATURE ..THAT WAS SCARY AS HELL!!! As I lean over a large portion of loathing and trip and fall on a piece of concern..or was it contempt ..I CULDNT TELL!!

Imay never get out of my head,this shit in here is real..so much to work my way through..

I just don't know what to feel!!

DOESNT MATTER IF I SCREAM or how long I shout,

IM BEGINNING TO REALISE I MAY NEVER GET OUT!!

grasping reality I see and sit by my eyes..and look out at what I see in front of me..

I take a deep breath and I learn ..

Being stuck in my head shouldn't be that big of a concern.!

And I wonder how I haven't seen this yet?..that spending time in my own head ..I shouldn't fear and regret,.

Then I realize I'm not perfect but special with out a doubt..

Then SUDDENLY I REALIZE in the distance is a EXIT SIGHN.. .WOW THATS MY WAY OUT!!

So I get up and run as fast as I can...

That once Im out of my head ...

I'll truely love myself again !!!