I can't feel it

I can't feel it
That I am going on
To my manic state
I know that I am
Starting to be angry at people
I know that people starting to
Avoid me
Because they also feel hurt
They also are afraid that I
Can do something bad to them
I am trying very hard to control
My anger
That is something that I must do
Urgent
Also, I am not getting a proper
Sleep
The truth is that I need my full
Sleep every day
Now I know that my mind is foggy
I am also afraid that I could lose
My friends
And become alone again