Salty Tears

Salty Tears 
 I often think of you. I think about the way you could make my spirit smile. The way you made my blood rush to my face. The joy I felt when I knew you were coming around. The strength and warmth of your hugs. They meant so much to me. The security of a man I imagined was mine. 

The reality was you never were. My insecurities held on to you. The thought of you only wanting and looking at me as if I was the only one that received that stare. The pure feeling of lust and what I felt was love. 

You were my 2019 internet friend before anything else. Then we finally met a couple of years later. The way we met had me believe we were going to become more. Everything felt so perfect that day. You took me out to eat, we dressed up and just talked like we had met a thousand times before. Those dates suddenly became second nature to us….until they didn’t anymore. 

I will always replay our walk to the park in my head like my favorite romance movie. I will always remember our pure innocent moments together. Now that you are gone. All I have left are my salty tears. My heart will always be dull for you in the same spot that shined when you were in my life. 

I will always have a love for you that will never fade….even though we ended with pain.