You never held a knife
At Least not the way I did
I watched myself burn the pages of my life
And i kinda liked it
Now all my memories are fading
Set them all on fire
Just like those pages
Burned my desires
And now all I have left is my hatred
All because they are liars
And I couldn't take it
I'd sell my soul to make amends
And that's exactly what I did
No way to forgive
She was only just a kid
Forgot all my sins
Threw them in a bin
Happily ever after
Doesn't even exist
Was it a match or a lighter
I can't remember
Too late to scream for help now
She had already let me down
Cry now or you won't cry ever again
That's what she said
All the voices started
When I became brain dead
Take this pill once a day
That's what the doctor said
But it won't take the voices away
But you'll feel a little less dead
So I did
I took the pills
Then I witnessed that she got killed
The girl I used to be
Is no longer inside of me
She'll tell you she set me free
From myself
To think I couldn't breathe
When I wasn't even in hell
You asked me what this was all about
What it all means
She cut off my mouth
So that I can’t speak
I can't tell you what happened
Behind the scenes
Or she'll scream
The night I felt saddened
And now I have to pay for the consequences
To my actions
If only things could be a little different
If only you were there when it happened
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Comments3
Such a sense of loss. Feelings of being robbed of oneself. Drugged and broken loosing one's sense of self to become what others call normal. I have seen too much of this in others where medication zombified them. Sad was the feeling I got and anger at one forced to change who they are. A lovely write that is heart wrenching.
Thanks!!!
BRAVO
Thanks!!
You're welcome
I get the sense of anger and sadness at being forced to be something there not, being medicated which is not going to resolve the real inner issues, a very touching and emotional write, that is very well expressed
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