The pedestal

I'm placed on a pedestal

Too high up to be reached by others

So high up I feel smothered

Walking on eggshells to avoid mistakes 

Eluding the idea that I'm human

But I'm so high up on that stupid, stupid pedestal

The clouds block out any essence of humanity

Making mistakes, expressing the wrong emotions

I feel like I can't be human

I feel the need to be perfect

Be the person who can't be weak

Be the person you wish to seek

But I don't want to be on my pedestal

I just want to jump off

Let my body smash against the ground

I want to drive into a tree

I want to get hit by a car

I want to be hospitalized

I don't want to die

I just need people to realize that I can

So that maybe they hold me closer

So that they hug me tighter

So that maybe, just maybe, I can come off of that stupid, stupid, pedestal 

I need to be held

I need to be known not as the perfect child on that pedestal

But as the child that is also human

But as just a child who needs a break from that pedestal

But I'm stuck up here

Stuck on this stupid stupid pedestal

Hoping that maybe one day, somehow, someway

I'll be free from my pedestal