I'm not mad that

i'm not mad that..

you didn't want me.

i'm mad because

you acted like you did.

You made me fall for you and left me 

like i meant nothing to you.

That broke my heart.

But the thing is I can't seem to let go.

I can't bring myself to say goodbye.

I don't wanna say goodbye.

I thought i knew you better than anyone ,

but apparently not.

I thought you wouldn't leave me,

I thought you loved me,

I thought I found the one,

the one I'd read my vowels to,

My future children's father,

My soulmate.

But at the end of the story,

we both lost:

I lost time,

and you lost me.

No woman becomes toxic on her own.

she is shaped by the way she is treated.

Love her right, 

respect her soul,

and watch her bloom into the kindest version of herself.

You get what you give - It's that simple.

Treat her right, and she'll shine with love.

You get what you give - simple as that.

I have learned that

the wrong partner

will teach you that you can handle everything on your own.

The right partner knows you can but

won't let you.

They'll stand by your side, 

share the load, 

help you thrive together.

In a true partnership,

strength is found in unity,

not isolation.

I don't know if i want to be over you yet,

but I have this strong feeling for you.

And I don't think I can ever bring myself to say goodbye.

But for now I'm single until a man

proves he's serious.

Because I'm too old for

'Let's see where this goes.'

Sir, this is not a road trip.

 Sir, grow up and learn some manners

and respect.

Because I deserve to be with someone,

I can message even the smallest parts

of my day and you'll congrats me or talk bout it with me.

The monsters in

My head always knew

That I would 

Lose you in 

The end.

Things happen,

life is horrible,

past is past,

all is forgiven 

and I just need to grow up, 

and find someone that cares about me

and loves me. 

I'm not saying goodbye

and this isn't forever.

But I can't wait for you forever just know that.

IF I do move on leave me be.