Distractions

Here within these walls I feel confined to 

I can only create 

The surge of energy that comes

From being chained

Feels illegal to me

Trapped in a prison

Of my mind 

While my body is forced to 

Weigh the burdon

But it sharpens me

Restless I am unbound

My body submits to my will

I put my plans into actions 

I reach the start of my day

By ending the nightmares

But too restless to enjoy

The star that I paved way 

To burn and light away

I still want to be freed

From my captive stay

With providing everything 

I despise everything

Echoes of my tainted soul

Have finally comeback

To take it’s hourly toll

I can still fight back

My body cries

I already ate so ignore it

It shouldn't need

No, It shouldn't want anything else

Time elapsed

And then it helps me 

Fight what’s good for me

A fight that last for hours

Even longer with friends we picked up

We laugh at their stories

Take long walks together

Continue to fight our good fight

Whilst I realize 

I've only furthered my plight 

In an act of self

Not for preservation

But desperation

I yell

“The enemy was me all along”

Waiting for them to draw 

I made sure I wouldn’t fold

But a hand graced me

“It was a truth that was been told”

“But only one that you like to hold”

Those words relay to me 

Me, me, me, me

Who were my enemies

Who were my friends 

Help me uncover this lens

As I open my eyes 

I try to not cry

Surrounded by nothing

I was in an empty apartment

In an empty soul