Haunted by Regret

If only I had known the weight
Of actions that would forever haunt my fate
I would have chosen differently, I swear
But fear and doubt led me astray, and I didn't care

I ran from love, from joy, from what was true
Blinded by my own insecurities, I didn't know what to do
Now tears fall like rain, as I look back in time
Regretting every moment, every choice that was mine

Fears that once seemed justified now seem so vain
For they stole from me the love that could have remained
Trapped by my own thoughts, I relive the pain
Wishing I could turn back time, but it's all in vain

If only I had known the harm I'd cause
I would have acted differently, with a loving pause
I'm sorry for the hurt, the tears, the sleepless nights
Sorry for not seeing the love that shone with all its light

You deserved so much better, a love that's true and kind
Not the fear and doubt that I left behind
My apologies, dear one, for not being brave
For letting fear consume me, and our love, I couldn't save

In hindsight, I see the truth, the love that was real
But fears and doubts obscured my view, and I couldn't feel
The love that was right in front of me, the whole time
A love that I regret losing, a heart that's still mine.