Piano

I stopped playing my piano

I don't know why, but its been a while

Since I've felt the ivory covered wood

Under my moving fingers hoods

I played it for you, though you didn't know

For I played it in my room alone

After we got close, we started talking

Meeting in and out of school, laughing

Talking of faraway dreams

Hazy, like the way you're eyes looked under the sunlight beams

I told you secrets I'd never told before

Gave you my heart untorn

And it inspired me, you inspired me

To play those ivory covered keys

'Till I made a beautiful tune

Beautiful, but nothing compared to you

But lately I haven't been able to play

Because now, its not the same

My piano seems to have changed the way it sings

And when I opened it up, I realized the chords were now hitting heartstrings

Hammering, feeling, pulling, plucking, at every beat

Every note, every minor and major, feeling like concrete

Smashing into my heart

Something ethereal, something more than art.

And I lied

What a big surprise, right?

I know why I don't play

Its just easier not to say

Its because I placed my heart in your open palms

And smiled at all your jokes, or when you complimented me for my lip balm

But then you did the same to her

And at first I didn't think much of it at all

As I happily wore your sweater

Oblivious to the fact that now she's the one you walk down the halls

But somehow, I still don't think its your fault

I think its mine, though I wish I could say I thought

Because I'm the stupid one to try with you

But obviously something seemed to have been confused

I should have proceeded with caution

Now I'm just another option.

So now I play my piano elaborately

A tune that's broken, intricate, beautiful blasphemy

And now I finally know why I couldn't play before

Because I think a part of me knew

And I can't lie to it how I lie to you

So now I play out all my sorrows

And later, cry in bed until tomorrow

But I can play my piano now

Now that you aren't around