Hope

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I'm on my way, I'm coming

Don't lose faith in me

I know you've been waiting

I know you've been praying

For my soul

I still have hope

Six years you been dragging' your feet

Tellin' me I'm the reason we're different

Six years you've been claiming you value honesty

And promising progress

Well, where are they at?

I don't want to feel like a failure

I know this will hurt

I've given you your chances to deliver

Now it's my turn

Don't get me wrong

You've had a great run

But it's time to give the people something different

So without further ado, I'd

Like to introduce my

My poem

Hope

What's my definition of success?

Listening to whatever your heart says

Standing up for what you know is right

While everybody else is

Holding their breath

What's my definition of success?

Doing something no one else can

Like being brave enough to dream big

Trying when you're told to just quit

Giving more even when you got nothing left

It's a person who'll take a chance on

Something they were told would never happen

It's a person that can see the bright side

Through the dark times

When there ain't one

It's when someone who had never had anything

Isn't afraid to walk away from

Something that could make them more profit

'Cause they'd rather do something that they really love

And take the pay cut

It's a person who never wavers

Or changes who they are

Just to try and feel accepted by a stranger

So they can feel better about themselves in the future

It's someone that can take the failures

And turn them into motivation

It's believing in yourself when no one else does, it's called affirmation

It's amazing what a little bit of faith can do

Even if you don't even believe in you

Why would you think or expect anybody else to?

I've done things that I regret

I've said things I can't take back

I was a lost soul at a crossroad

Who had no hope

But I changed that

I spent years of my life holding on to things I shouldn't have kept, full of hatred

Years of my life carrying a lot of baggage that I should've just walked away from

Years of my life wishing I at least looked different, for someone else's validation

Years of my life trying to fill the holes in my childhood, when I still had a imagination

They say growing pain's a necessary evil

If it's not difficult to go through, then is it really beneficial?

Some would say breaking down is a negative thing

Which on one hand, I agree with

On the other hand, it was the push I needed

To start the healing process

So I can finally ask for help

Because I couldn't get it from myself

See if I had never hit rock bottom

Would I still be the person that I am today?

I don't believe so

I'm the prime example of what happens when you choose to not accept defeat

While I was fight sleep

I faced my demons

Took me six years to realize that if you want to get the opportunity

To be the greatest version of yourself

Sometimes you have to pretend to be Someone you're not to hear the voice of reason

I needed to really take a step back and look in the mirror

To realize I was my own prisoner

Six years of running, six years of searching

Six years of hurting, six years of pain

Six years of fearful, six years of anger

Six years of empty, six years of shame

Six years of broken, six years of anguish

Six years of hopeless, six years of (hey)

Six years of never, six years of maybe

Six years of later, six years of fake

Six years of hollow, six years of sorrow

Six years of darkness, six years of (hate)

Six years of baggage, six years of sadness

Six years of restraint, six years of chains

Six years of anxious, six years of suffering

Six years of torment, six years of (wait)

Six years of bitter, six years of lonely

Six years of pushing everyone away

I'm just waiting for these thoughts to  dissolve

But instead they speak louder saying “You'll never evolve

We are not enough

You'll never be loved

You're falling apart

You don't have a heart

You'll never be safe

Might as well give up

You should run away

You don't have the guts”

So instead of giving in I say:

I know I can change

We are not the same

You don't have the strength

I have the faith

I'm not running away

You're the one afraid

I'm the one in charge

I'm taking the reins