The Best is Left of Me

I want to share this story with you because I find it hard to believe.

And if you walk one step in my shoes then it will be easier to perceive.

Because it is like one small step for man but a giant leap for man kind.

Until I spent all my money to buy the happiness I can never find.

And I try to protect myself because I wear my heart on my sleeve.

When I was 16 my mom passed away yet I stayed to busy to grieve.

I am left with a broken heart that I can not mend back into one piece.

So I finance fake smiles on consignment indebted until God paid the lease.

I paint this crazy picture for you so that maybe you will be able to see.

The treasure in my chest and a heart on lock after I threw away the key.

I once had Faith the size of a mustard seed yet with works never sown.

How do I bare fruit every harvest in dirt where nothing can be grown.

A lie that was in my mind stopped trying to rob this long lesson I was taught.

To a place filled with God’s grace so lowercase place I was brought.

But only after I had walked in faith to do the very thing that I never sought.

And out of all of those places that in this life I always thought that I’d never be.

I was looking for myself in all the wrong places till a walk with Jesus led me to my key.

And it freed a lonely soul and healed this broken heart from a blessing that had no fee.

When I do what I never thought that I could it shows my faith in God who saved me.

Because after the pandemic I double downed and bet my whole life on a long shot.

But is losing even possible when we learn to win in each of the losses that we never got.

Somehow it is very true that the worst of my losses is what resulted in my greatest wins.

Like how losing my mother when I was 16 changed my path to repent for all of my sins.

Which has fueled this passion to go hard and never give anything less than my very best.

This was the result after a tragedy pushed this selfish heart completely out of my chest.

It keeps me up all hours of the night caring for everyone else that has laid down to rest.

I never scored higher on any exam that I passed than I did from each of my lowly failed test.

So it pushed my heart so far away from myself allowing me to care for others who have less.

God put this in my heart with a purpose and a passion that he works through me to bless.

To share to each and every one of you that feels like you have ever lost then don’t stress.

If you believe and help others know Christ then Christ will deliver you from this worldly mess.

This is what my healed heart is pumping blood to my thumbs to type for you to confess.

Because by giving your all to glorify God is the only way to be represented by the very best.

Look out our God who is so good that we can gain from a loss and learn from a failed test.

This is why for God I will continue to give my all to people by serving his people nothing less.

Than the truth that you need to believe and have faith in God so that your life he will bless.

This is a reason that I give God my all because I know he deserves much more from me.

God is the reason that I made it here with more for my life that before I could never see.

Because other than my soul I always felt like I didn’t have anything else that I could lose.

And I truly believe that this is a byproduct from all of the actions that I will eventually choose.

Which are now devoted to acting only on that gentle quiet voice in my mind from God.

Who made an old soul more secure causing failed attempts by the devil who tried to rob.

And this is how God shows me that I’m traveling up his righteous and rocky little path.

It showed me that I’m blessed to lose it all so I put it on everything that I used to have.

I navigate the obstacles so to lose my soul is something that I will never allow myself to do.

Because sometimes in life we can’t continue to grow unless we make room for the new.

It brought me to the change that I needed so I could pay homage to the dirt in which I had grew.

A dry scorched place at a white dilapidated two story home that route took me to.