One Day You'll Understand

For my children I would do anything 

But I cannot bear for them to see me held in captivity 

I want for them to believe in all that I could never be 

Nothing but goodness is all I ever wanted for them to see

Unfortunately yet fortunate 

Life has its own demons

The world often hides from what it is we should believe in

The human race hating themselves 

Morally disgraced 

As your mother I admit I have made so many wrongs

Still my love for you is stronger than any storm 

By leaving I was so convinced I would be doing you harm

The pain and anger had me locked up with such a strong arm

What if I failed you as a mom

Then I hit rock bottom 

To the pit of hell I fell

I let myself become so belittled 

Real love for a woman was something my children never got to witness 

My soul was depleted 

I was screaming 

My heart retreated

I had to find my way home so I could be whole 

I had to be happy because it's what I know

Love makes your heart glow

Happiness is all in the seed you allow to sow

I would rather you be mad for awhile 

Yet later look back and see me smile

Then to constantly see me beat down on trial

One day you'll understand 

Love Mom

ALK 

Sunshine