Things I'd Never Say To You

You're just thinking it's a small thing   that happened. 

 The world ended when it happened to   me. 

  I just wish you would talk to me,

 It's the saddest thing I've ever wished for , 

 You said you'd keep in touch, I think you forgot to mention ' Just barely ' ,

 Can't we go back to the way we were   before ? 

 It's been half a year since I last saw you,

 You keep telling me you'd visit , but you   never do ,

 You promised a lot of things and most    of them are due , 

 But , please!  Can't we work this   through ? 

 You missed my birthday, 

 You weren't able to make it, 

 When you told me this , I cried that day, 

But I'm just a kid.

 I was supposed to celebrate turning   fifteen. 

 With you .

 But you weren't there , 

 I just wish I wasn't invincible to you and I could actually be seen . 

 You're the only father figure I've ever   had,

 But when you behave like this, I do admit , it makes me really sad. 

 I love you, it's ruining my life, 

 I don't know how you do it, killing me   but also making me come alive. 

 I wonder what you'd say if you got to   know that you made me cry , 

 Would you have any guilt? 

 I think yes , yes you would feel guilty,

 It would probably cause your heart to   momentarily wilt , 

 You would start making plans, clearing   your schedule, to see me in the city . 

 But all of this would never happen.

 Because you'd never know. 

 Who's gonna tell you? Not me . 

 Who knows I cried? Nobody but me .

 Well ,

 I will always miss you like the stars   miss the sun in the morning sky ,

 And I'll hope that you do too , 

 I just hope we never say goodbye.