Sweet Poison

The poison tastes so sweet,
And all I know what to do is grieve ,
Memories I have of my mother are bittersweet,
Thanks to you mother , I don't think I can be loved, ever ,
It's something I believe.
You can yell at me all you want,
But I can't even cry ,
In every argument, in every mistake, somehow I'm always the one at fault,
Why are you so mean , mother , why?

Love is beauty, love is pain
See the sunshine in the rain.
Sweet poison, see me grieve
With these bittersweet memories—
But you never do see.
Because i held in my tears
For all those aching years…..
They say, ‘she’s your mother’,
‘You’re supposed to love her’
I do.
But what you don’t understand
Is that when i needed a hand to hold
And a shoulder to cry on,
The only thing i could rely on
Was a backhand, a scold,
From my mother, now bygone.