Freedom.

e·man·ci·pa·tion

1.) the fact or process of being set free from legal, social, or political restrictions; liberation.

2.) the freeing of someone from slavery.

As in: The excitement of the idea of freedom being almost more exciting than itself.

As in: Getting to stay home and know I'll never experience hands of rage touch my skin for thinks I didn't cause.

As in: Getting to be a normal teenager and experience normal life.

As in: Being able to love him freely without fear of being hurt for loving.

As in: Being free from abuse, and rape, and drugs and hurt....but at what cost

As in: never coming in contact with my mother or younger sisters because to them I was the wrong one.

As in: future generations being told lies and never knowing the truth...

in the end is it really freedom if my soul dwells on what will happen...?

Am I truly free from this spiritual tie I have to honor "thy mother"?

Emancipated but at the cost of guilt.

I know if I live and love for the rest of my life in guilt from what I can't control I never truly will be free.

And I've come to realize that my actions only matter in the present, I can't change the past.

Emancipated- but to me it has a different definition.

Free of myself.

Free of guilt.

Free of pain.

Free of my mother.

Free of her abuse.

Free of her pain. Her guilt. Her pain- that she pushed onto my shoulders so hers wouldn't have to carry it. 

Free.