My Storm

There's this storm going on. Its raging inside of me. My reality is so hard right now, i just want to escape. Im dancing in the storm, i sit through the storm, i scream in the storm, I cry in the storm. Yet I still keep going even on my worst days i just keep going that's all I ever known to do was keep going, keep fighting i always faked till I make it but that that's wasn't working for me so I changed it up a bit. I now Faith Till I Make It. I pray I cry to God I thank God. I do my best. Ya see I don't have it easy. It's hard and heart breaking and overwhelming  to really talk about. One day that chapter will open right now it's processing what is going on the deck is stacked against  me some say I got the shity end of the stick. But yet even tho there's a storm right now I'm dancing through it. I'm controlling the things that I can and being calm while more things are coming about that I can't control I'm managing I'm processing things better to. But yet it's all so overwhelming  nights are hard things really are weighing me down. I. Suffocating, drowning, yet there's this void, the storm is shaking the foundation I have built. I'm shook I'm so shocked, I'm lost for words at this point. And I just I want to be free, I want to be alone, I want to just have a place of my own a actual home not a temporary place a place that is safe for me and my daughter. A place to call ours. And one day that will happen one day at a time. I know this storm will pass to, I know there will be a lot of growth. This chapter doesn't define us. We will get through this storm. No matter  if we are running,  screaming, laughing,  playing,  crying,  dancing, no matter what or how we are getting through this storm......