where are you

It's been 2 years since we talked I still sometimes text you I still listen to your voice mails I still see you  and every moment you called me beautiful held me close and applaud me for the times I didn't feel a fuss was needed when I close my eyes 

its been 2 years and I'm not the same person I use to be I find myself sometimes daydreaming that everything hasn't changed that in some way you are still sitting waiting for my call

I didn't know if I was being completely insane or just grieving all over again I wish life made sense and that God could just explain to me why he took you from me  but death doesn't work like that

Its Been 2 years and I'm finally doing the things I promised you I just wish life didn't always bring trauma before something good happens

its 2 years later where are you.