Forever Wounded

I always dreamed you were the one
I was blind to who I was praying for
When you said you loved me, I thought I'd won
But you did it just so you could have more

More, that's what you really wanted
It was never me but what encapsulated me
Wrapped tight around my truth, like linen mummified
You were drawn to the mystery, so you unwrapped to pry inside

Seeing is what your eyes are meant to do
And your ears are meant to hear
Yet neither was enough as you
If you really looked, you would've seen the tears too

Tears, streaming down my face and you acted like you cared
You hugged me, you apologized, and promised to never hurt me
But none of that was true as I still remained scared
And I flinch when I see a man all because you wanted dopamine

Dopamine- your fix and your fire
You stole all that I had just to feed your empty desire
The void you blamed others for but now I'm in the blackhole
And when I finally had enough that's when it all was stole

Stole, apparently that's all you know how to do
Taking what you wanted and leaving me when you're through
Not hearing or seeing or loving me like you promised
Here I am broken because I thought you were being honest

You had all of my firsts, and they had all of yours
So, I guess that means you can add a tally to your scores
Congratulations you messed up another person, but you'll always be the victim
Cause nobody will ever know your messed up little system

So, when I see you twice a week, I'll just smile to myself
Knowing good and well I could never treat someone like you did
And the pain is unbearable sometimes cause I buried myself, just to love someone who only cared for himself
But no one will know, because I'll just lay here- forever wounded