I figured if I got the " good grades" ,
The ones that you wanted,
You would finally love me , mom ,
But I was wrong, and it hurt alot to be honest.
Mother, am I that unlovable ?
Is there something wrong with me?
It feels like to impress you is just impossible,
You say that you love me, but do you, really?
Mother, you had me but I never had you,
I was a child,
Yet , even now , I still don't know what it's like to feel loved,
Please, mom , please, I tried,
Is what you do really just?
You made me want to kill myself,
And trust me, I tried to,
Couldn't you tell that I really needed help?
I couldn't even tell it to you.
When this happened, I was thirteen,
Just thirteen,
All you did then and all you do now is yell and scream.
It's fine, mom ,
My bed can hug me instead,
My pillow doesn't mind wiping my tears,
I'll be fine, mom ,
I just wish I knew what it's like to have a mother who loves you in a way you feel loved.
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Author:
Akshadha Joshi (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: June 8th, 2025 03:58
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Comments2
So complicated, a poem from a child moving to adulthood with existential feelings of pain and feeling not understood, alone. Breaking of parental ties and being pulled into an adult world where continued child needs for nurturance and care have not yet left. The separation pain can be felt in this poem. Very nicely worded
Thank you so much for your kind words 💖
Sad, touching and very heartfelt write of the struggles of a relationship between mother and daughter and the daughter's fight for her mother's love , now even as an adult it still hurts and you sense that longing for the love is still there, brave and very honest
Thanks a lot for your support 💖
You are very welcome
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