Never good enough

Everyday is the same 

Ketamine, hobby's and bed 

No matter what I do 

I can shake the sins that you choose 

Because it's always about emotional abuse 

Screaming, shouting crying 

Now I'm alone and I'm dying 

The constant tears and the lying 

If i could see you, without all the booze 

I wouldn't lie, you were my muse 

Desperation, frustration 

It's all I feel inside 

Never been violent 

Now I'm acting like a tyrant 

Sick of being silent 

My soul was vibrant 

But not it's no more 

I can't even sit and watch netflix anymore 

I just stare at walls 

How can people say they love someone with their all 

But would happily kick them down on the floor 

It doesn't matter anyway I'll never be good enough 

I know that because why does the universe keep taking my stuff!