Trying to understand where I am
im lost in myself
where’s my centre
sometimes it feels like
I lose the connection to me
or have lost
and then it feels like
there are pieces of rain
sighs of
but where am I
I’m meant to be here
feel here
but I’m disconnecting
then I sigh again
why
Because it hurts to not feel like me
to not sense me
to feel like I’m over there
to look in the mirror
and feel confusion
and more sighs
because there it is again
I’m seeing a stranger in the mirror
Can I not return
because sometimes it feels like I’ve vanished
yes
I write and that’s me
but i can’t always even feel like me when I’m writing
I want to sense me and I don’t know
don’t know where I am
…
then I’m standing here
In a certain place
but it feels like a house
it feels like I’m in a house
but something inside me is telling me
it doesn’t always feel like ‘ home
and then I’m sighing again
maybe my feelings are making me dissociate ..
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Yellow rose (Pseudonym) (
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- Comment from author about the poem: Been feeling a bit sad and confused today
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Comments2
Dissociation is a strange defense separating from one's own body in order not to feel reality a most interesting read
Thankyou .. i guess it’s minds way of trying to protect itself
Although dissociation can feel tiring , sometimes .. and difficult
Yeah sometimes I just don’t feel at home here .. maybe it’s partly because I’m missing certain people
Thankyou for the comment
Sorry, my friend. No that I and those reading your words are with you in mind and heart. At least I can speak for my self. Sending you love and positive vibes. ❤️🩹
Thankyou for the kind words .. Thankyou ))
Yes it’s difficult feeling like that but some days are easier
And I have a therapist that tries helping
Amen. Therapists do their best, for sure. The good ones anyway. Mine tries helping me too. Doesn’t stop the paralyzing anxiety, depression, etc., but they are helpful. A resource. You are most welcome, my friend. Glad we can share. I find that helpful too. ❤️🩹☺️
Yeah I’ve been seeing the same therapist for two years now .. yea , they can be helpful
I try to do some things she suggests .. but not always
It can be quite tiring ( sometimes ) feeling like this
Sorry you struggle aswell
Yes, it can be. It is. Glad to know you my friend. And I really do love and relate to your poetry. ❤️🩹
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