Lopst Memories: Volume I

Welcome to the Lost Memories: Volume I!

 

This first semester of 2025 has been a busy year for me in terms of poetry. With experimenting with themes, structure, rhythms and more, I have had a long burst of energy in writing and publishing poems. While I am incredibly proud of what I have published thus far, I can confidently say that not every poem is created equal. Some are quick formed poems with very little polish. Some were experimental poetry designed to test my abilities. Even some were just made for the fun of it, with no intention to publish them initially. Instead of letting these poems to gather dust on my notepad, I've decided to compile them into one post for your viewing pleasure. Lost Memories will likely be a recurring thing every semester, or every six months, to document poems that were created, in no particular order, behind the scenes, but not fitting for a standalone publish. If applicable, I will provide additional context, facts and information for each poem as an authors note after each section title. I hope you enjoy!

 

- - - I - - -

When creating this poem, I had Nine Inch Nails "Find My Way" in mind. Why, I even used some of the lyrics from that song to this poem. Alot of my poems are heavily inspired by Nine Inch Nails, but this one is one of the more obvious

 

I'd woke up one day

Found myself gone astray

For reasons I cannot say

Somewhere I'd lost my way

 

There was no exact day

On where I'd gone astray

This is not where I'll stay

I have to go and find my way

 

Reminders cross every day

That long ago I'd gone astray

If someone could go and say

Where I may find my way

 

Until that distant day

I'll find myself still gone astray

Wish I'd more time to stay

Maybe I could when I find my way

 

- - - II - - -

Speaking my mind is difficult. Writing it, however, is far easier

 

If only I had the strength

To say what I'll like to say

Will the pressure go away

Or would it just stay?

 

If I could speak my thoughts

Let you know my fears

And all the treasures I hold dear

Would you still stay here?

 

If only my tongue

Wasnt bound by insecurities

If I could speak for all of me

I may find myself free

 

If only I had the strength

To just say anything

Let my voice be heard

Outside of writing

 

- - - III - - -

Short and sweet

 

As the rain pours

As the thunder roars

Lightning sparks the sky

I stare out my window

Lost in a trance

Deep in thoughts

Within that storm, I fly

 

- - - IV - - -

Even the bright moments can be stained by an ever-present shadow

 

I feel so happy, happy

The world feels so bright

All my woes, gone away

Far out of sight

I feel so light now

I can do all I please

The storm in my head

Now left me at ease

 

 

And nevermind that dulling void

Encroaching the back of your mind

Dont listen to the panic

Your sense of self fading

Noises, noises, so many noises

Its hard to ignore

 

 

I feel at peace, peace

Drifting in my own serenity

Nothing can hurt me, why

I'm full of clarity

And that dark echo behind me

Coming ever so closer

Ignore it, enjoy the music

Don't look over your shoulder

 

 

And dont you feel it again

Burning inside your mind?

Walls begin to crumble

And your reality crashes down

Scream loudly, louder, louder

It'll never let you go

 

 

I'm at peace

Nothing is ever wrong

I'm finally free

Nothing can go wrong

I feel complete

Nothing feels wrong

I have everything

Why does it feel wrong?

 

- - - V - - -

Is our future destined for fire and ashes?

 

Keep us in chains, will you?

We've only ever lived this way

Your tower rises far above

While we rest in cardboard

Each and every day

Your words strike fear

Yet they're fragile like your ego

You'll soon reap what you sow

 

 

Feed us more fire

Hell, the news will eat it up

You can convince an audience

To follow your every word

With the venom you dump

Men proudly lined

To lick the dirt of the biggest crown

Before they throw us back down

 

 

Wage more wars

Send the youth to die

Your ventures cant run on purity

Its all about that seductive dollar

Build your foundation where the dead lie

Its you against everyone

So why should you ever stop

When you could come out on top

 

 

Kill the earth away

You can just build a new one

And from the ashes of armageddon

You'll emerge unscathed

And sell away the rights of all gone

We're your pawns, afterall

So why should you care?

No one said life was ever fair

 

- - - VI - - -

This was another experiment to make a song-like poem. Truth be told, out of all of my unpublished works, this is my favorite. While elements of it is embellished for the sake of writing, I feel as if there is alot of truths painted into this poem. There is quite a bit of myself sprinkled here. It was a very cathartic write for me

 

Fire
For my pyre
Returned to ashes

Wired
I'm a liar
Hated by the masses

Slivers
My body quivers
Feeling myself fall

Lesions
Spilling crimson
I'll paint this wall


You want to know
Want to know more about me?
I'm at a loss
I'm on a spiraling trajectory
I'm sick
I'm tired
Somebody stop this noise


Silent
Its too quiet
Where is everybody?

Echoes
My thoughts flow
Rapidly inside of me

Static
Made of plastic
My shell crumbles

Fading
I'm quickly fading
To a whimpering mumble


You want to know
Want to know more about me?
Theres nothing left
Nothing left for you to see
I'm weak
I'm tired
Help me stop this noise

I feel myself
Feel myself disappearing
All I was
All I was erases into nothing
I'm sick
I'm tired
I can't stop this noise


Just too tired of it all
I just dont care
Just too tired of it all
I just dont care
Just too tired of it all
I just dont care
Just too tired of it all
I just dont care
Just too tired

 

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Until the next volume, lads

Take care

❤️