Fake Confidence

I never say what I mean

I’m a big drama queen

I’ll double text you (for sure),

But then just leave you on seen.

Keep me waiting too long,

I’ll be sure to make a scene.

I’ll say that I’m selfish,

Before you even think it.

The fort ‘round my heart,

Took me years to build it.

Got that fake confidence,

When I’m shaking inside,

Chin held up high in defiance,

All my fears they hide.

And when those tears come,

I just bottle them up,

Put on a smile, remove the glum,

Add on a little make-up.

I’ll fake it till I make it

Or till I burn out,

And throw a crazy fit,

Where I scream and I shout.

About how life’s so unfair,

Cause I ain’t rich or pretty,

But I use my words like knives,

To be oh so petty.

And most times that’s enough,

But I’m tired of performing,

Pretending to be tough,

God, that’s exhausting.