Dead Feelings..

I’ve been searching through the trash trying to find the hope that I never had, because all I want is to find peace along with my will to live, for the weight of all this trash is suffocating and I’m losing my reasons to stay here.. You threw me away just like another one of your stays, and then you laughed as I sat in the burning trash can bleeding.. I’m losing hope for the future, but I’m still waiting for another moment, just praying that things come to change because it’s draining my heart as it slowly burns out into the darkness.. I can’t find the words to describe how this wicked world had shredded my heart into pieces, but even if I could, I know that no one’s listening.. Everyone made me feel alive until I had to come back to my eternal prison cell, because it was a constant reminder that I was to spend forever all alone.. I guess once you experience what you thought true love was, you don’t get any more chances to come home to a family ever again.. I had spent my whole life trying to become Superman for what, just to come back every day to my casket.. There ain’t no hope for this wicked future; no college, no family, just the weight of all of these dead feelings as they push me into my grave..