Struggles

The word struggle hit me like a bolt of lightening ,

I want to be a people pleaser and not let everyone know how I’m feeling , or know anything .

I want to be numb so I don’t feel pain,

Its strange , I’ll end up going insane .
The wind is blowing rapid , giving me a sign , the numbers , the signs , I’ll end up blind .

I am blind to good love , I only receive toxic love , maybe I don’t deserve the light and only revive the dark !