Angels

and her wings were open 

and mine were closed 

    and her mouth opened

        while mine stayed closed 

and it was so long ago 

    and it was right now 

and her halo shone, and i looked up into the heavens, 

and she said to me 

"nobody is looking"

and she said to him 

"we are just playing"

and i said to him 

    "yeah that's right"

and i forgive you 

    and i worry for you

and i see you then 

    in replacement for you now 

i don't know what i would say to you now 

in a way 

i want to be a little angel with you again 

and i want to be children 

and i want to play with you as children would 

and maybe it would be different if it was not so rushed

and maybe there is a version where we really were just "experimenting" 

maybe in that version 

i dont have the sinking feeling 

that somebody did this

to you 

too

I would see you, and you would be an adult. me too.

and maybe we would hug, you hugged me last time. 

and its not like that happened when we got older at all. 

and its not like we ever spoke about it. 

maybe the version where it is okay, can be this one, 

i hope you are alright wherever you are, 

i would like to tell you myself 

but also 

I would like to keep my wings closed.