Voices Beyond the Cross

As a kid,
Christianity was my
Favorite subject.
Being a kid,
I didn't have any
Ties with The Lord
To connect.

I didn't like church.

I prayed to him once,
My prayers were answered.
I prayed that my mother
Would have enough money
To buy her kids whatever
They wanted.

I prayed twice,
My prayers were answered.
I've forgotten what it was.
Maybe it was to get away
From my family.

Anyway,
It happened -
At 19,
I started living on my own.

Then I had a nightmare.

The church I was forced
To attend.
Everything was red.
I was sitting on the
Church benches.
I step out onto the isle,
Walking up to the altar.

Every church member gathered
Around me in a circle,
Holding axes.

Some walked up to me,
To stab me with their axe.
Some even threw their axe
At me,
Hitting me.

The nightmare ends,
And I wake inside the church.

After that,
I felt scared of Christianity,
And became an atheist.
I was still a kid -
Atheism was all I knew,
Besides Christianity.

As I grew,
The more I learned about
Other religions and beliefs.

At 16,
I was spiritually agnostic-
All the way up until
I was 19.
A deity reached out to me,
The Morrigan,
A Celtic deity who is a triple
Goddess.

This changed my belief.

I decide to go to a religion
That seems to fit me;
Polytheism.
Then a god reached out to me,
Apollo -
Greek god of medicine,
Oracles,
Poetry,
Music,
And many more.

I asked if he was the one
That answered my prayers.
He said, 'Yes.'
This changes everything.
I'm grateful for having them
In my life.

Blessed Be.